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I just had a strange dream about my sister dying.. hm.

I've been feeling a lot better the past few days, and perhaps it does have to do with the dates I've been on. One supposed actual date, and the other just hanging out with a person I have a huge crush on. Both went well.

Thinking about Maya more, when she was here she had put on this make one night. She never wears make up and looks like a clown when she does. This time with bright blue eye shadow and overly fem lipstick. Thinking about when she did that now, I realize how lonely she was. And I'm realizing we react different when lonely. I become sad/depressed. She becomes restless and aggressive. I think she was acting horribly because she was lonely and desperate for affection. Which I can understand. She just has a funny way of showing it and at the time I didn't have any idea that that's what that meant. Realizing that, the Italy trip makes sense. I wish we were both in a position where we could be friends now. But there's always later I guess.

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