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I was doing better for a few days. The TGEU conference was/is great. But I somehow always manage to isolate myself. My training as an American perhaps plays a role here. The standoffishness, the refusal of eye contact. The fear? Is that where this all stems from? Lack of confidence?

Crushing is really counter productive. Crush hard. Crushed hard. I've done this since I was a little kid, perhaps all my life. It only hurts me, over and over and over. Why do I handle this different than everyone else? I thought I was getting better about this. Is my sense of attraction subconsciously purposely putting me at odds with love? Why is my self esteem so easily punctured when others don't reciprocate my interest?

I do know I'm worth it.

I need stratagies for staying on top.

Date: 2008-05-07 09:53 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
when you (general) isolate yourself, it just keeps on going in circles... you draw away from people, it gets harder to be sociable etc. and consequently makes you more vulnerable and more insecure. but don't pull yourself away from having crushes on people, it's nothing personal if someone doesn't reciprote your interest. think about people who have found you attractive and you didn't feel the same, it's not like something was wrong with them, sometimes the click just doesn't happen on both sides.
much love,
m.

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